Warning: this blog may be triggering at times. I post what's on my heart. Sometimes I'm positive and determined, sometimes I want to curl up in a ball and die. If you can't handle that, don't follow.
I'm tired of running away from mirrors. I'm tired of looking down at my stomach and literally just wanting to grab those disgusting rolls of fat and rip them off my my body. I'm tired of being the chubby friend. I'm tired of being one of the guys because I'm not pretty and petite like all the other girls. I'm tired of crying every time I have to try on dresses for a school dance. I'm tired. I won't feel like this anymore. I refuse to.
Spring. I want to see how much weight I can lose this season. I want to be able to wear a bikini by summer.
I will follow almost any thinspo blog. Healthy or not healthy, thinspo/fitspo is what I need right now.
STATS:
SW: 176
CW: 137
GW 1: 155 (REACHED!)
GW 2: 145 (REACHED!)
GW 3: 130
UGW: 120-115
(I feel so fat compared to everyone else's stats. But I refuse to let that stop me from at least giving this a shot.)

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